That was interesting. Hrmm. Not like a slap in the face so much as an attempt at one. So when I left, I made him get up to hug me. The look on her face was priceless. Ah. Oops.

I promised myself I would go to bed early.  Why is it that I manage to keep almost all of my promises to other people, but break so many that I make to myself?  I was close.  I had my dog, I brushed my teeth, I got down to my skivvies, climbed into bed, reached down to put away my toy box, and instead picked up an old journal ( Read more... )

Woke up in a dandy mood this morning, after taking a bath, shaving, and drinking a glass of brandy while watching the pre-air episode of dexter last night and going to bed dreaming of happy things.  Then my phone rang, and my giggling slowly turned into crying because I got a guilt trip about how much I'm changing, and how he's taking it personally ( Read more... )

Last night, I initially went to the Chesterton to check out their 80's night, called Manic.  They music was great, but the dancefloor was a very narrow strip between the bar and the tables.  That will not do.  Good place to go if I want to socialize (though really too noisy) but not to dance at.  SO, after one finely made gin gimlet and a few ( Read more... )

Can't sleep.  Too busy being a complete nutter ( Read more... )

I should be happy and relieved, I guess, that I don't have to spend every day angry and upset and lonely while still living with the man I love as he dates another woman...  But I'm not happy, and I'm not relieved, and I spent a long time last night crying.  I have to accept this now.  I signed a lease on an apartment that will be mine and mine ( Read more... )

To combat the oncoming headaches that come with the season, I've been taking excedrin once a day in the morning, plus claritin, plus probiotics, plus the pill, though the latter two are unrelated to the former two.  It helps - the headaches stay at bay, and I can function without hanging my head to keep it from pounding.

BUT... because of the ( Read more... )

Had a good moment in the office at home yesterday.  Scott was sitting at his computer, and I was in there talking to him about something mundane and car related.  He turned to look at me, sitting slumped on the stool next to him.  He gave me the once-over, said "stand up."  When I did he said "holy crap, anna, do you have any idea how much weight ( Read more... )

Feeling better than earlier, though still quite a bit off.  Work is really slow right now, which is giving me more time to think than I'd like, but I've been trying to pace myself.

Today marks day ten of the cleanse, and I'm still going strong.  Getting through sunday should be no problem at this point, it's just a matter of days.  Sunday I have to ( Read more... )

I'm having one of those bad days where I miss him so much that I ache all over, and my throat clenches up when I think about him.  This is turning into one of those "lets go drink lots of vodka after work" days.  Good thing I can't drink right now, or I'd be in lots of trouble, I'm betting ( Read more... )